Caroline Smailes (a published student)
February 2008
The Friday Project

About the publication

A woman commits suicide and her only daughter finds her naked body. Lying next to it, a note reads ‘Jude, I have gone in search of Adam.’ Her daughter embarks on a search to uncover a truth and an identity but, without roots and without role models, her search for selfhood is potted with a constant need to adapt and to survive. Motherless, rootless and unprotected, Jude Williams’ childhood is fractured by the horror and experience of sexual abuse, forcing her to exist somewhere and nowhere in–between childhood and adulthood. Caught within the limitations of her own language and trapped within a family secret, Jude becomes the consequence of her mother’s tragedy. As she moves through the 1980s, Jude’s life is buffeted by choice and destiny. She collects experiences that layer her personal tragedy and plunge her into the darkest of worlds. 


A stark and shocking tale told unflinchingly yet with outstanding sensitivity.

Dave Hill (author of The Adoption)

A unique, exciting and unforgettable read.

Ray Robinson (author of Electricity)